Hello fellow human people. You may be wondering what the hell happened! To that end let me first say I’m so sorry, life happened in big and terrible ways. What started as a very small issue of depression quickly turned to a long-term situation that still as of yet has not completely resolved.
Some weeks ago I had a job interview for a full-time job that went fabulously well, I know not exactly what you were expecting. After which I was given the impression that I would be starting my new job there in a couple of weeks. I became incredibly excited as chasing a full-time office job has been an elusive goal of mine for over two years. On Wednesday I had written out the entire article I was in final preparation for posting when I got the text message that shattered my entire day. I know it may not seem like a lot to many of you, but being rejected again hit me really hard. I had spent the entire day writing and rewriting and perfecting an article that was all about getting this job, so when the depressing truth settled in I gave up. It wasn’t fair to you if I’m being honest I wasn’t even really fair to myself, but I couldn’t see far enough past my depression to realize or care. Loosing this opportunity was so much more than just not getting a job it was having all the possibilities it would open up ripped away.
The very next week I had crawled out of my depression enough to try to write to you to apologize to explain what I just stated above. But before I could even walk through my front door coming home from my day job I got a call. The call was from my baby brother my mother had been admitted to the ER unresponsive they believed she had a seizure and nobody knew why. I spent the entire day on and off the phone with various people trying to assess how she was doing, find out what legal actions if any needed to be taken, and most importantly why this happened.
I wish I could say it got better from there but it didn’t. By the end of the day they had decided to airlift her to another hospital where they had better equipment for monitoring her brain. This meant that somebody had to go with her to make decisions, this duty fell to my younger brother who for all of his strengths and all that he did was not emotionally capable of handling it. Thankfully with the help of friends, family; most notably my aunts, and other wonderful people in my life I was able to cross the distance to Michigan to be there to make decisions and see my mother through this. It was eventually decided that she was suffering from either viral meningitis or encephalitis which are both viral infections of the brain that create swelling. These particular infections are usually not this bad but my mom likes to do everything big. Thankfully with time and patience they were able to wake her up from her medically induced coma take out her intubation tube and move towards healing.Sadly this took about several weeks which is why I have been out all of this time.
I’m so sorry that I did not keep you all updated, that I didn’t post something. In the heat of the moment it’s not where I was at mentally. A bedside was my home until she was awake and even after that most of my time was spent talking to her or holding her hand till we were able to get her to a rehab facility. I for see no further interruptions to this blog and I pray that you will come back and read with me again. I will keep you updated on her situation as things develop so that you all can lend your prayers and energies toward healing as those around me already have. You are friends as real as anyone else in my life even if I don’t know your face, and you deserve answers from me and this is it. Thank you for reading, until next time stay your wonderfully mad selves.